Happy Turkey Day!

Friday, Nov. 25, 2005 @ 3:38 p.m.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

This Thanksgiving turned out really well! I ate dinner with my family and we even watched a movie. I'm amazed at how well we're getting along. I was expecting lots of fighting like there usually is, but I don't think we've fought once yet since I've been home. Even at breakfast this morning, we discussed things like adults, and it was so wonderful. I feel like I'm really growing up, and I'm able to deal with my parents better.

Anyway, I'm really excited because we also celebrated my birthday today. There was good cake, and I got a COACH purse!!! It's soooo cute!!! This is what it looks like.

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I was really surprised, but I love it and I can't wait to wear it!

Anyway, my family and I watched "Beauty Shop" with Queen Latifah. It was actually pretty good. My whole family liked it. I bring this up cuz I have relationships on my mind. Of course there were those boy & girl meet, boy & girl like each other, eventually boy & girl kiss moments, and of course it made me a little nostalgic/sad. I've been doing really well being single, and for once I'm not out looking for a relationship. I don't even know if that's what God wants for me at this time in my life. But sometimes I just miss that feeling. You know, the butterfly feeling you get when you connect with someone. I miss the connection. It doesn't happen very often with a lot of people, but when it does, it can be really strong. And even though I'm not looking for a relationship right now, I think I might be looking for a connection with someone, even on a friendship level.

Shifting a bit, this semester has been hard because I've lost some really close friendships that I'd built in the past 2 years. But at the same time, God is introducing me to some new friends, which I appreciate and am very grateful for, but I can't help missing how close I used to be with those I've lost. I mean, things happen so you can't always go back to what once was, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I think hurt pretty much sums up how I've been feeling about this semester a lot. I hurt someone who hurt me in return (karma, i know), one of my friends really hurt another of my friends so it's hard for me to be close to her now, the guy I fell in love with this summer completely turned out to be not who I thought he was, another guy that I had a strong relationship with for 4 years hurt me in the worst way and never even cared, it just seems like I've taken the brunt of a lot of things this year. But I'm proud of how I keep rising and staying strong on the inside. I'm proud that I can allow myself to open up to new people. I'm proud that I'm learning and growing from my mistakes. It makes me appreciate the pain that I've endured, because I believe it's helping mold me into the person God wants me to be.

This Thanksgiving, I'm so happy and grateful for so many things:
-I'm alive and healthy
-I'm still standing, though I keep getting knocked down
-I have a beautiful family who has worked so hard to provide me with the wonderful life I live
-I have friends who care about me
-I'm a student at the University of Michigan, which I'm very proud of
-I have a big heart and I care about others
and of course, to save the best and most important for last (even though He is always first)...
-GOD loves me and is always taking care of me. I know my relationship with Him has been rocky lately, but I know He's there and He will NEVER leave me. And I truly feel so blessed for what He's given me.

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday.

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